Life may be not easy

Bismillah ,

Life may be not easy,
Namun kerna-Mu aku berdiri sini.

Life may be not easy,
Namun kerna-Mu luka yang berdarah dah kering sendiri.

Life may be not easy,
Lemasnya aku namun Kau tetap memahami, memberi ruang, dan memaafkan pacal yang hina ini.

Life may be not easy,
Aku pernah lari, aku pernah kembali, walau berkali-kali kaki tersadung akar yang melatari, Kau masih tetap menemani.

Life may be not easy,
Hari ini mungkin aku bernafas, esok lusa tak ketahuan lagi, harapanku saat Izrail melawati, ampunan dan rahmat kasih sayang-Mu melebihi dosa-dosaku yang menggunung tinggi.

Life may be not easy,
Aku masih mencari, semoga bertemu insan yang Kau aturi, mungkin yang akan dijumpai, atau mungkin yang menawarkan diri, andai dia milik abadi, gerakkanlah hati ini ya Rabbi, satukan lah kami, dalam mengejar hidup dunia dan akhirat yang hakiki.

WAllahua'lam .

Mencoret

Bismillah ,

Alhamdulillah . Allah masih beri aku ruang untuk bernafas, walau banyak masa aku masih lalai dari mengingati Dia. Masa, satu ujian dari Dia untuk manusia. yup.

Alhamdulillah . Aku baru je habis 1 training course ku, gonna have another two courses in the about 3 weeks span here in Swiss. along this time, I have to mix around with different kind of people, different background, culture and language. Frankly speaking, masa kat Toronto dulu, aku jarang mixed around with foreign guys except Muslim. means klu dia foreign guys but dia Muslim, byk la yang aku bercampur. so I dont really have much experience to know about those guys punya behaviour . dun have so much confidence to get around with them maybe . haha . but, here I learnt how to mingle around and try to get to know them better . Most of them are kind , respect others , but of course , drinking , women and those which are not good things are what most of them are doing . but yeah , ini dugaan juga untuk aku . sebab later , insya'Allah ada rezeki , kena kerja dengan those kind of guys dkt site, kena la jaga diri . according to schedule, i might be sent to Taiwan for about a month after the training. but it just a plan, they might change it or I might have to go to different site, those are according to their needs.

Yeah , about getting married , people keep asking me, when u want to get married man ? haha . this kind of question dah jemu juga aku dengar . ye la . kawan aku ramai dah settle down, jemputan bertalu talu . well, walau kuat camne pun ko usaha , jodoh belum sampai , tak jadi juga dude . at least aku dah usaha . ramai kata aku choosy, well , not really choosy, cuma ko nk kahwin kot, sedang ko nk beli handset, beli kereta yang ko nk pakai ntah berapa tahun pun ko consider byk benda , ini kan kahwin . if somebody really, like really know me, they might know what i am doing . tp , ntah la . jodoh, rezeki, ajal, benda2 yang misteri. and aku ada sembang dengan sorang senior engineer company aku ni , n he gives me the view about my work nature . he said like i gonna travel a lot, from one site to another, might have emergency call to site (which one of the excuse for me of not getting into medicine field, ahak) . so yeah, if i wanna get married pun, have to get someone yg boleh understand about my work nature, etc kot. doa jer lah yang terbaik, klu sampai jodoh aku nanti, panjang umur, insya'Allah kahwin la . yeah , jodoh , byk je contoh depan mata , bertahun tahun kawan dengan orang lain, end up kahwin dgn orang lain . so who knows . my senior said , focus my work first, like after few years kahwin la kot . haha , ntah la . but yeah, ini dah rezeki aku, dan bidang ni benda yang aku nak buat, dan as for now, aku tak rasa aku boleh kerja office based. more than 3 months kot aku kerja dalam office , i felt like , dude, this is not what i want to do for now kot . later maybe la . so will see la . apa yang akan jadi pada masa hadapan . Peace yo!

Oh yeah , please doa kan yang baik baik untuk aku . thanks , really appreciate that .

Wassalam .

heart disease

Bismillah ...

The corrupted thing needs to be cleansed, purified and purged. And I think my heart really needs that .

WAllahua'lam .